Sunday, 15 March 2009

I'm in one of those "I love people" moods right now. I guess that's not such a bad thing. I know I often go on about how much I hate them all, but I never mean it. There are nice people out there, you just have to find them. I really appreciate all the friends that I have and all the different people that are out there. You make my life interesting, even those of you that are complete arseholes. I don't blame you to be honest, there's always a reason why people do things, even if it's not clear to the rest of us. I've just realised how positive this blog post is so far and I'm rather proud of myself. I can't remember the last time I felt like this and it feels like a step forward. I know that I'll always be a negative person, but that's just the way I am. The only thing I can do is accept it. Being negative isn't such a bad thing really, it just means that I have to try extra hard. I'm just one of these people that needs to feel like they're loved and sometimes I can't see it. I guess that this makes me blind because it's obviously there. Thanks to the person who gave a slap around the face (not literally) and made me see this. It was a while ago and you'll never read this, but thanks anyway.

That reminds me in drama last year when we me and Claire where performing and she got a bit carried away and slapped me really hard around the face. It hurt quite a lot, but it was perfect for our scene. This is why I love Claire: because she's just so unpredictable! We don't really speak much anymore, which is a shame, but it's not the end of the world. I miss drama a lot now I think about it. I wish that I'd picked it as one of my options this year, but I didn't. I can't put my hand up in class or read aloud, but I can perform on a stage. It makes no sense, but that's the way it is. I can't act without a stage area and an audience. I was doing really well last year and I loved drama so I don't know what came over me when I filled in the form for cooking. I do fine on all my written work, but I can't cook! I think I could be a great cook if I wanted to be, but that's the thing, I don't. I'm not interested in cooking or learning about food. I just want to eat it.
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  1. Voldemint.15 March 2009 at 20:54

    you should try to get moved into my drama class. it would be piss funny. :D
    I think you have french at the same time, though, so it wouldn't work :[
    yeah, the other class has daniel in it. it's not good.
    was it in drama when claire put her boob in your mouth, too?
    I wish i was in your class last year :'[

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  3. Unknown15 March 2009 at 23:45

    "I'm just one of these people that needs to feel like they're loved and sometimes I can't see it."
    "I know that I'll always be a negative person, but that's just the way I am."
    Me too. But I'm improving!

    Good job on being positive.
    :)

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  4. Chaos~Dreaming15 March 2009 at 23:52

    Being positive is nice. Sometimes.

    I get where you're coming from. I'm like that, too. Except that I'm kinda bi-polar. I can be so happy one minute, and want you to die and burn in hell the next. ;)

    I also agree with you. Randomness is fun! Lol!

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  5. Sarah16 March 2009 at 07:36

    So how would I go about getting moved into your drama class? I can hardly swap subjects half way through the year, epecially after I've done so much of that shitty cooking work! Your drama class sounds fun because boys grope each other. ^^

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  6. Sarah16 March 2009 at 07:38

    Wooooo! I'm not even grumpy this morning! xD That is an achievement. Perhaps it's because I didn't wake up at 4am today. :) I have a geography test this morning and I'm not too fussed about it either. That's always good.

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  7. Sarah16 March 2009 at 07:43

    I never understood bi-polar disorder. All the changes in emotion seem so extreme. Nevermind. What exactly causes it? Is it like different from depression?

    Randomness is just amazing. A lot of my friends are weird like that. <3

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  8. jaboodi16 March 2009 at 20:37

    Oh jesus someone asked questions and now, being the geek I am I have to answer them.

    Bipolar disorder. (aka manic depression)
    generally defined by massive changes in mood over a long period of time (3 times a year is rapid)

    I don't think anyones sure what causes it but it seems to be triggered by some kind of drastic or dramatic event.

    It's different from depression because you get massive highs as well as lows.

    Manic episodes can have symptoms such as rapid thoughts, in ability to sleep, loads of energy, generally being really happy, an increase in creative talent and compulsive spending. In extreme cases some people hallucinate.

    Depressive episodes can be defined by generally feeling depressed, hating yourself and everything/everyone else, loss of creative talent, inability to think properly, lack of motivation.

    you can also get hypomania which is a less extreme form of mania.

    you can get a few different forms of bipolar disorder along with mixed state bipolar disorder in which you get symptoms for both mania and depression.

    Don't ask how I know all this. There's a wiki page on it if you want to find out more.

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  9. Chaos~Dreaming17 March 2009 at 06:17

    ......I seriously think I'm bi-polar now. That's a scary thought.... Ahhh!!

    ;)

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  10. Sarah17 March 2009 at 07:37

    Jazz, there is something wrong with you. That wasn't about anglerfish! :-O ;-) LOOOOL! Thank you very much darling! xD Hahahaha!

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  11. jaboodi17 March 2009 at 16:08

    It's your fault, you know I can't resist when someone asks a question I know the answer to!

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  12. Sarah17 March 2009 at 16:49

    Yeah but it's so freakin' scary sometimes that you know things like that! Lol! xD

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  13. jaboodi17 March 2009 at 17:40

    yeah well you found mr cobley's blog! that's just odd, how the hell did you find it? did you google him?

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  14. Sarah17 March 2009 at 18:36

    Shush you! I don't want to reveal my secrets!

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  15. jaboodi18 March 2009 at 22:14

    And I can't reveal mine! Although most the stuff I know is because whan I get bored I just follow random strings of links on the internet and just find wierd things then read about them. I seem to soak up this kind of information like a sponge.

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