Don't you just hate it when someone sends you a text and you don't notice it until hours later?

Jack sent me a text saying "lots of texts! :) x" at 1:08pm, but I only just realised that he'd sent it (N) I suppose it doesn't really matter anyway because it made me smile. I like the sound of unlimited texts. I have to top up by £15 each month to recieve 500 free texts. Can anybody recommend any good networks? I think it's a good idea for me to get a new phone soon because mine's kinda... shitty. I'd like one with a decent camera as well because I think I could get into taking photos. You might ask me why I don't just buy a camera, but I much prefer to have one device that does everything. I suppose it wouldn't hurt me to have both :)

I had a bit of a breakdown earlier :/
Dad came into my room and tried to talk to me when I was feeling my worst and I just burst into tears. First time he's seen me cry properly for a good 8 years. I don't like to show my emotions in front of my parents because I have to live with them. Just as I don't like to see them feeling down, I imagine they don't like to see me feeling down either. Also, I just want to get on with my life. Trying to bring a sense of normality back is very hard to do when you have people asking you "how are you feeling?" and stuff. It's also very off putting the way they begin to look at you as well. All the sympathetic smiles and shit. I'm just not into all that stuff :/

Anyway, I'm still not well. I'm feeling alright atm, but it will begin again tomorrow morning :( At least I attempted to do something today. I got out of bed, cleaned my room up a bit, had a quick shower and then got changed out of my pyjamas. I did it for my dad tbh, not myself. I felt terrible. He bought me some new pyjamas and a pair of dark curtains, which was nice :) I might be going to the doctors tomorrow. Yes, MIGHT. I get the feeling that I'll go mental when I'm there tbh and if i have to take any tests then I'm going to go insane. I don't want pills or medicine so I'm kinda fucked. I'm pretty sure it's just stress, but oh well. My parents will just force me to soon. I can't lay in bed forever. Even I know that.

Oh, does anyone know any good DS games? I can't decide for myself :/

Yes, toodle-oooo for now my lovelies.
I feel like saying "lawl" (the influence of Chaos)
LAWL.