I just got changed out of my pyjamas in a moment of enthusiasm, but my attempts to get up and do something productive were quite pathetic really. I want to do something other than lay in bed all day, but it feels so uncomfortable to get up and walk about. If it didn't make me feel so nauseous, then I'd probably have gone out quite a while ago. I really don't know what to do about this. I'm not sure whether I want to feel mentally ill or physically ill. Ideally, neither, but it doesn't seem like I have a choice right now. The choices are: a) get up and walk about, but feel sick or b) lay in bed all day, feeling down because I'm so bored.

I had a talk to mum about it last night and with dad this morning. They both said completely different things, but they were all good ideas. I know for a fact that my unhealthy lifestyle contributes to this quite a bit, so that's got to change. It's going to be difficult, but I suppose my psychological battle against food can be sorted out. Stress is another thing that I need to start dealing with. At this moment in time, I'm not dealing with it, I'm simply repressing it and carrying on with life. It's not helping me.

Yeah, so that's basically all I have to say about that for today. I shall continue with what I was doing before I decided to write this (which was nothing)