Friday, 17 April 2009

It's all over and I've had my fucking dinner!
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8 comments:

  1. jaboodi17 April 2009 at 20:32

    did he make you it or did you get your own?

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  2. Sarah18 April 2009 at 09:58

    neither. he decided that he would just go out and get me a chinese. i would've done my own, but there was nothing to have because he didn't buy anything. it's not my fault that i eat crap. i don't want to and if i'd had it any other way then i would've been brought up eating healthy food. this is mainly because when we used to live in harpingdon, dad was working so hard that he couldn't be bothered to cook and neither could my mum, so they bought takeaways 4 or 5 times a week. what was i supposed to do? i wasn't a fucking genius kid. "father, this diet is unacceptable! i need vitamins!" >:( oh, and another thing. he tried to FORCE me to ring the chinese up to order what i wanted because he was being awkward. i didn't do it. i could've done, but i didn't like the way he spoke to me, so i refused. this caused another big argument. i don't like speaking over the phone to friends, let alone a fucking chinese person who probably can't speak english. depends who was on the shift. and i wish that my granddad would fuck off and leave us alone. if he's going to keep ringing then he's going to make my mum worse. my granddad is an evil manipulative fucker. he's horrible to my nan and gives her a shitty time and he's nasty to my cousin, who is as thick as a plank. i hate him. i wouldn't care if i never saw him again.

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  3. Sarah18 April 2009 at 10:02

    i'm going to sell that gold necklace that he got me as well because it means fuck all to me. he means fuck all to me. i would've kept it if it was from my nan, but it wasn't. i don't see why i should. oh great, he's coming round tomorrow. typical. i shall enjoy the last days of my holiday. why can't he just FUCK OFF? i HATE him. i think i'll just go out on my own and sit there and feel sorry for myself that i have a shitty life.

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  4. Sarah18 April 2009 at 10:06

    it's so depressing that one day in the future i'll have no one but my spastic cousins. they're both nice people, but they're so thick. i won't have a family of my own because no one would ever want me. i might have my friends still if i haven't abandonned them to life a people-less life. i'm feeling so wound up right now and i hope it hasn't ruined my day beacsue we're all meeting up in an hour. i have an hour to calm down. i just need to chill out. if i had some drugs then i'd take them. it'd be nice to escape the real world for once because it sucks.

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  5. Sarah18 April 2009 at 10:10

    i'm freaking out. i hate this planet. it's fucking stupid. why can't some meteor come and blow it to pieces? it'd be so much fucking better for everyone. i hate living. i would've have chosen it, but i had no choice. i could've so been somebody else so easily, but i had to go and be me. all the things i want, i can't have. i try hard at school and get nowhere. i hardly ever get credit for anything and i just feel like i'm wasting all my time. i might just drop out of school and become and alcoholic. i can see why people would want to be constantly pissed.

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  6. Sarah18 April 2009 at 10:14

    i will be fine before i have to go out. i'm letting it all out now so that i don't completely explode. i need my hair cut and i don't want to go and get it cut on my own. it'd be so lonely and depressing. i don't even know what i want done. i know for a fact i'll go in there wanting it cut short and i'll end up getting a trim, again. it's so boring. i'd like to dye my hair too, but i can't. it would probably go horribly wrong. i can't dye my hair black because emma has and then i would be 'copying' and i can't dye it red because then i would be 'copying' kathryn so my only option left is blonde and that sucks ass because i'm too fat to be a blonde bimbo and it wouldn't suit me. i know it wouldn't because nothing ever does. i'm wasting my time trying to make myself look nice because i rarely ever do. i've wasted so much money on hair products and stuff, when i know that they do nothing to make me look better.

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  7. Sarah18 April 2009 at 10:18

    i feel better already. i just need to think about something happy. i'm not thinking positive because that's too much to ask me to do right now. you'd be silly to try and get me to be positive because my mum is dying. anyway, i like gta chinatown wars. it's pretty good and was totally worth the £25 that i spent on it. i bought it secondhand and made the bloke swap the broken case for me. i saved a total of £5 which went towards something else. i didn't actually buy anything that day because my dad bought it all for me. i think he felt guilty that he acts like a complete arse sometimes. i'll never know. it was nice to have a treat for once though.

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  8. Sarah18 April 2009 at 10:20

    now i'm going to play a game now where i read the last word of every line. it totally makes sense.

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